My one and only brother,
I know you read my blog sometimes and sometimes not. But If you happen to read this, which I really really hope you read. I don't know how to start. I know we don't talk much. Somehow I just wanna let you know, I really need you! I don't talk much, I have be brave now, I need to talk with you, I won't let this family get destroyed by my shyness. I'm brave enough now to tell you that
I NEED YOU
TO BE
IN THIS HOME!
I beg you, can you please just come home every weekend and talk to grandma and daddy? If
Brenda or
Jolene or whoever close to my bro happen to read this, can you help me? I really can't bear it anymore! I don't know what to do! Once I come home, she sat in her room, he gone out, sometimes sleeping in room and I just sitting in living room and I got nothing to do! I'm all alone! Nobody accompany me beside those Shouters and some Bloggers. Thanks god that I have this bunch of Shouters to cheer me up and support me all the time. They made me feel love. If wasn't for them. I would really drive my car go out and crash with a container, lorry, bus or whatsoever that can makes me lie in hospital! She scolded him, she cries, he get scolded and don't know what did he did wrong, he cries. She complain to me, he scolded me! WHAT THE HELL did I done wrong? I just sitting here blogging or shouting whole day and I never speaks a words! Being quiet still get scolded, I speak up just now and I still get scolded! WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO??!! I really can't bear it anymore! My mind gonna explode soon! Somehow I wish that I can be like you and stay in your hostel and come back once a month or maybe more! I know you need to study, BUT I NEED TO STUDY TOO!! Why is nobody cares about me??!! I already good enough that I didn't leak anything that I was not suppose to say. Arrgghhh... Is this a test from god? Why god choose me to be in this? I don't wanna get involve! I just want a simple and happy family! Even if we're poor, as long as we're happy! Now you got money but you have the worst family. What's the fun part now? I really need bro to be in this home all the times and listen to grandma what she said. I can't receive anymore!
WOULD YOU MIND GET YOUR LAZY ASS BACK TO HOME EVERY WEEKENDS??
I got test, my exam coming soon, I got assignment, I got NO TIME! Dad is extremely good enough, he gave us everything, just he want us to ask from him. Grandma is the one that making this worst! She is asking too much! I just hope you come back helping to get this thing right! I can't do anything, you're the only one I can hope.
I don't know..... I just need you to be in this home. I don't know what I can do, or what should I do? Or should I just call someone to kill me! WHO CAN I CALL FOR HELP??!! WHO WILLING TO HELP ME??!! WHEN WILL THIS COMES TO AN END??!!
Chee Hsien